I Lost a Friend Mon, 16 March 09
Jacelyn • Filed under: Personal, Ranting • 10:20 pm • Comments(6)
I never knew I had to blog about this. I never expect to have such a problem in my life. During all these years, I never had any major problems with any of my friends. I treat each and every one of them equally, I help them whenever I can, I listen to their problems and gave them advices now and then. I trust my friends, I love all my friends and I choose my friends wisely. I expect them to treat me the same way as I did to them.
The other day, one of my friends came over to my house and we had a good talk. She was complaining to me about the problems she had with her friends. I gave her advices and proudly told her I never had any problems with all my friends. She was quite surprised and I could see that she was green with envy.
Not anymore I supposed.
Today, I cried because of a friend. I cried for the whole two hours because of my stupid mistake. It was my fault initially, but I really didn’t expect things to turn out this way.
I knew she would be reading this and I really have to say, I AM SORRY. I am sorry for that message on Facebook. It was in a fit of anger. I truly apologize for it. But one thing I don’t understand is the stuff that you blogged about. I had to clarify:-
- I did not forgo the chance to go to Fahrenheit’s concert with you on purpose. I was down with a bad flu and fever and had MC for 2 days. I couldn’t even get off from my bed. I had already explained to you. Why do you have to say that I stood you up at the very last minute and bring this matter up? I even sold the ticket to your friend at a much cheaper price cos it’s YOUR friend. I really don’t get it.
- Someone else screwed up my entire day’s itinerary when I was supposed to go to your house for steamboat. I didn’t want this to happen either. Do you think I want it this way?
Other than these two occasions, I don’t think I had canceled any of the outings before. If I did, then I must have my reasons for it and I hope you understand.
But why do you have to say the other person deserved those tickets better?
Where am I during your birthday for the past few years? Do you know I ran all the way to the cake shop to buy your favorite cake?
Where am I when you need someone to host your blog? Do you know that I absorbed a portion of the charges that was supposed to pay to my host? For the three of you! Do you even know that?!
Where am I when your ex did horrible things? Where am I when you were down? I kept all your secrets for you. Did I share it with anybody else? No.
It’s not about forgetting or not having a good memory to remember what your friends like. It’s about the heart to. You like Winnie the Pooh, S.H.E., Fahrenheit, black, white, steamboat, etc. All these I know. Do you know mine?
I don’t know what else to say. I am extremely hurt. If you feel that I am not worth being your friend and failed as being one, I am alright with it. After all, I am the one who started kicking up a big fuss.
I know we will never be the same again.
